Do you ever feel defeated, deflated and just dead tired? That is me today. The world has gotten to me. The future is foggy and I want to make the best decision for my family and my children, but I feel myself shutting down.
I am not dealing with a horrible disease like cancer and my kids are healthy so I know I should feel lucky. I slap my own wrist and tell myself to snap out of it and pull yourself up by your boot straps, but I need to recalibrate.
Sometimes in this life it doesn’t matter how hard you work or how smart you are. Timing, and life planning are important. When you are at a precipous and you know you need to make major changes it is scary and hard. I want to kick my feet like H and say “No! Not yet!” I want to have a toddler sized tirade and get my own way, but that isn’t how the world works. Sometimes life just isn’t fair.
So I remind myself that despite the fog I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other. If I keep moving I will come out the other side. Then I give myself permission for a good cry and a nap and maybe a little singing 4 Non-Blondes at the top of my lungs. When I wake up I need to look at the glass half full and I need to be my children’s best mom. So that is exactly what I am going to be.
Peace, Love and Recallibration